First Ink-

We learn, grow and heal fom our different experiences. That is one thing I have been trying to understand now more than ever. Something I have been anticipating for years now has been my very first tattoo. What would I get? Why would I get it? And where would I place it? Now i’ve never been one to believe that every tattoo must have a meaning, but for however long I can remember flowers have been so so important to me. Flowers symbolize growth. They grow big and tall, sometimes wilt because they’re not properly taken care of, much like us, but they grow beautiful again. They leave seeds here and there and allow more and more growth among the fields and garden around them. They never truly stop growing, and neither do we.. 

So never stop growing and loving and sharing that growth and love with others. 

I’ve grown and i’m still growing. 

I’d rather not dream at all

In my slumber
its your hands around my waist

your fingers tracing my skin

your lips kissing away my pain 

and its your voice whispering all good things to me

but then i wake up

and its your hands that are absent 

your lips on a can of cheap beer 

instead of passionately placed on mine

and its your voice saying to me the things I’d rather not hear

are these dreams or are they nightmares?

Drowning

Every new daylight

patches up the sleepless night before it

and with every passing moment

that i haven’t heard the familiar ‘I love you’

i sink deeper and deeper  

into a pool of my own hurt

and i can’t catch my breath 

so i keep sinking

and i let my body rest unmoving 

because maybe drowning

will feel better than this hurt

or maybe i’m expecting you to pull me back to surface

The Wrong Gardener

Be careful who you let tend to your garden

because one day they’ll pick your flower

you will plant yourself in them 

and you will become so deeply rooted

that when they leave you 

you cannot replant yourself anywhere else.

Roaming the streets of Italy. I admired these flowers up for sale so much until I later learned how damaging it can be to allow someone else to take care of you.